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Saturday, January 10, 2009 - To be or not to be...

Recently, I have been thinking about the fact that this could be MY YEAR. Well, last year was all great and all (check out my previous post), but I know, the icing in the cake will finally be having a lovelife.

Well, if you have read most of my post, I normally speak a lot about how my love life is always down the drain. It's my weakness, yet it's still one of the top things that is distracting me every now and then. I already have a respectable career and things are becoming stable. Too stable, that all distractions I have in my life is almost gone. And then there was lovelife.

Four years and still no cigar. So what happened during those four long years. Tried to court 1 or 2 girls. One of them, dumped me and found someone else despite what seemed to be a good start. The other, didn't really dumped me but basically made me feel that I had a chance then days later she found another guy. Then there were more girls and more girls who basically played around but I was not playing. I was a hopeless romantic again. For four long years now.

They thought, that after breaking up with my ex, that I had a gameplan to get another, that I could be on a roll. Afterall, four years before and four years after my ex, I was basically "torpe", or someone who is weak with girls. And the more downgrading fact is that, if you look it up a tagalog-english dictionary, it will say that torpe means dull or stupid. Maybe I am?

I want to feel the same things I felt before. I just need a big push on something and probably I'll be ticking again.